romance of crime

* insert loud farting noise here*

Tue, 20 Jan 2004 06:14:36 GMT

i' sooo bored w/ my music or lack there of. i went to ameoba and fingerprints, and left upset b/c everything i've wanted to buy before ( but didn't have the money) i've already listened to 898468438 times therefor ruining the whole "new" effect....so i picked up new york noise, a compilation of soul jazz bands/projects such as glenn branca, liquid liquid, ESG, but sadly they forgot a certain ratio, oh well....dickie walked out w/ the score of all scores...a runaways poster, where joan jett looks as tough as ever.

i go now,

tonight should be interesting...

Wed, 31 Dec 2003 20:59:57 GMT

ok so this holliday season has proven to be quite the exception, aside from recieving gifts that i adore, the family time as well as the gatherings, has been all together too much fun. re-uniting w/ friends and having "moments" w/ current ones. i love you all! and to those i still have not seen this season, i love you too. tonights gathering sounds promising, can't wait. if only it wasn't so effin' cold out.

who would'a thought...

Thu, 18 Sep 2003 00:30:03 GMT

gardening is my new passion. i love having a front yard as well as a back yard, i love having an avacado tree to make fresh guacamole, aside from the gardening, nothing much is new, burnt out from ridin' the ol' "C" train too much, i should probably give my nose a break. xoxo.

i moved again....

Wed, 06 Aug 2003 23:55:46 GMT

i got a house. it's cute, backyard and stuff, i'm back in orange now, the rent is super cheap....which is surprising being that it's an old house in old town orange, but whatever. i'm burnt from the heat, the move, ross' b-day, moms b-day, i don't even care really that it's my birhtday friday :( i just wanna sleep for the rest of the week.

most fun i've had on the fourth, EVER! (aside from being shot at by bottle-rockets)

Mon, 07 Jul 2003 20:33:22 GMT

so dickie and aaron moved in next door to ross and ryan, the vibe is so much better w/ them living there. they decided to have a party for the 4th of july, just about everyone in the building invited 20 + people, it was out of control, they had the craziest fireworks. it got kinda scary when people started throwing M80's in the firepit, which blew a hole in the steel drum of the firepit, none the less, was an awsome night, "i ain't skurred!".
i just wish i didn't have to work the next day, i thought i was gonna die :( , but i made it through the day.

it's gonna be a good weekend!

Tue, 17 Jun 2003 20:08:00 GMT

thurs....the fall!
sat......wire!

what more could a girl ask for?!?

Wed, 04 Jun 2003 21:40:34 GMT

i've been having the most erotic dreams lately...so weird that i suddenly have this hunger for sex, not only in my sub concious, but all the time. like i can't masterbate enough. i got one of those pay per view adult movies, they have "ADULT" or "EXTREME ADULT" i opted for the "EXTREME ADULT". it was deffinately extreme! i think i came like 14 times.

on an entirely different subject...
i've been thinking 'bout the good ol' days, times spent w/ dave and ryan, and jason , colin, jon and jeremy, and i know those times are gone forever. even though when i talk w/ dave we say we'll probably end up living in the same area again, somewhere, possibly NYC, but even if that's true, i don't think anything can top some of the memeories i have w/ these friends. i tried to call dave and his number has been disconnected, perhaps this is a means to an end?.?.

more later.

i hope this works....

Wed, 28 May 2003 20:30:39 GMT

some pics from nyc.

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sometimes i feel as if i'm compelled to write something.

Thu, 15 May 2003 00:29:25 GMT

....and here it goes...

i went to new york, i honestly had the best time, however i've re-considered the move out to the east coast, it's seriously hard living. for example, the day we arrived it was 80 degrees, the very next day 37 degrees. or how 'bout this...while riding the train you MUST pay attention to the overhead speaker RE: the cancellation/detouring of certain trains, if you should miss what they are saying, you might end up waiting for a train you would otherwise normally catch, b/c it's not stopping there that day.

i deffinately wanna visit again, but i wouldn't move ther unless i was rich and could afford carservices to just pick me up whenever i needed them. oh yeah, i really dig on how they refer to certain things, like swiping your credit card is called dipping. or liquor stores are bodeggas. weird.

more later.xo.

i'm back!

Sun, 13 Apr 2003 17:51:20 GMT

so i haven't updated in like a year...nothing really going on to write about. i'm taking a trip to new york, i leave on wed., and i'll be there for ten days, can't wait. other than that i haven't much to say. i'll post again when i think of something. byeee.

Thu, 06 Feb 2003 21:32:31 GMT

my life has been thus far uneventful (since the last entry). last weekend however was alright, ross, ryan, sara and i took mushrooms. dickie was there and was sober, but i swear he was crazier than any of us on shrooms.

scooter broke his arm again, it hadn't fully healed from the fall at the halloween party. jesus will that kid EVER learn?

i had a sad dream last night, it was about jeremy gil (ie:johnny and jeremy), in my dream he had killed himself, i was soooooo sad. this is weird because i have not even spoke to those guys in FOREVER, i hope they are doing good.

until the sordid future...

my new years eve...

Thu, 02 Jan 2003 19:17:00 GMT

morphine, xanax, wine, sleep.

it is a very sad day....

Thu, 12 Dec 2002 21:16:08 GMT

i just found out that mary hansen, keyboard player of stereolab died on tues. in a car accident, she's like my hero :(

get me away from here!

Mon, 02 Dec 2002 20:19:27 GMT

i have a boyfriend, and we don't connect AT ALL! why do we stay together? out of convenience? out of boredom? thats bullshit! i have never had a problem being alone before, why start now, i have many plans laid out for myself, none of which include him...i just don't know how to tell him i'm over it. we had some great times together, but i'm done.

i decided i'm moving to the east coast as soon as i get out of debt, which will be in less than a years time, i'm literally counting down the days.

will this ever stop hurting?

Tue, 26 Nov 2002 22:06:00 GMT

i had a dream about dave last night....

jesus, i miss him.

you've got my heart down to a science...

Wed, 06 Nov 2002 19:26:25 GMT

i should've expected this....
heroin always finds its way back to me,
this time it came in the form of a boy
i truly adore, and now i can't stop crying.

the boy least likely to...

Sat, 02 Nov 2002 20:37:01 GMT

ross is the best! just the thought of the boy puts the biggest smile on my face, being at his house and hanging out w/ his friends makes me feel right at home. his friends treat me as if i am the coolest girl they've ever encountered, i love it!
i've never been that girl who has the spotlight, so i'm taking full advantage of it while it lasts.

last night erica, myself, ross, ryan, dickie, and casper went to this lame club to see our friend spin, unfortunately we left before kenny went on :( we had fun being silly w/ ryan on the dance floor, he was waaay dranked!

well i'm at work now gotta go. xo.

life's no fun without a good scare....

Tue, 29 Oct 2002 21:59:17 GMT

a brief summary of events this weekend...

friday missed work b/c ross forgot to set alarm for me so i made up this intense lie that my car broke down and i couldn't make it to work. (i'm goin to hell)

sat. worked then morphed over to ross and ryans to decorate for the party, had a blast at the party even though only 2 of the like 18789471897481 people i invited showed up. :(

drank way too much alcohol, followed by way too much nitrous, passed out waaaaay too early.

woke up to pee, only to learn scooter fell of the second story and broke his arm, and had to be rushed to emergency.

last night went to visit scooter in the hospital, he might have to have surgery on his arm, but other than that he should be just fine.

more later xo.

p.s. thanks colin and jason m. for coming :)

SAY IT LOUD!

Thu, 24 Oct 2002 21:08:07 GMT

so the halloween party i have been planning w/ ross and ryan should turn out to be a blast this weekend! however i'm dissappointed w/ my costume :( it's not what i wanted to be, but i wasn't creative enough to make the costume i wanted. i wanted to be lydia from THE CARTOON version of beetleguise, ya know w/ the little red spiderweb cape, sounds sooo simple doesn't it? well i guess i'm just a dumb-ass because i couldn't make it :( soooo i'm forced to be something simple, i figured a cowgirl would be simple enough.

my cousin had a party for the premier of his new movie last weekend. i took ross, ryan, and their neighbor casper, we had sooo much fun. they got shitfaced and my parents became bff w/ all of them. goodtimes!

well i hope this party turns out good and doesn't end up making me too broke.
xo.

why the mind fuck?

Sat, 12 Oct 2002 17:08:15 GMT

why is it that i feel guilty when i'm totally happy, like i don't deserve to be completely satisfied, i always either feel guilty, or insecure, like it's not gonna last. right now i feel guilty, what's wrong with me?

up, down to and fro.

Wed, 09 Oct 2002 17:52:19 GMT

let me just start off by sayin, i love when things in life are just sooo interesting, LnC has played such a huge role in making my life appear that way, and has once again come through in making an interesting evening for me and my friends....

so i was scrolling through the boys section of LnC members, when i came across a profile that was all too familiar. when i realized it was kenny (a boy whom erica has crushed on since the begining of time) i got all excited, i enetered a silly little message on his board, really expecting nothing of it, but none the less excited to tell erica that her boyfriend is on LnC. he replied showing much interest, so erica decided to im him, she printed out the entire convo, and declared we are all now bff, "he loves us" she said. so he invited us to watch him spin the next night. we went and had a drink and stuff, it was cool, but i was mostly happy to see erica finally get close and personal w/ her boy. awwwww. <3 so anyhow, ross is the best, i <3 him soooo much :) he's been teaching me how to spin and stuff, we've planned a trip up north, he's havin a halloween party, there's sooo much going on, i luuuuv it! wooooo. more later, xo.

oooooh spooky!

Fri, 04 Oct 2002 20:59:53 GMT

okay so i've been having these really odd dreams lately, perhaps someone out there can help interpret them for me?

dream #1

...so i'm hanging out at my house, and being that it's a lovely day out, i decide to glance out the window, when low and behold the sky is infested with u.f.o.'s, and i say to myself "fuck they told us this was gonna happen, why do i never listen ?" so the aliens can detect humans w/ there laser beams. the only way to protect yourself, i discover, is to hide in plastic bags ( like hefty trash bags ??? ), anyhow, all i can think about is saving my dog and cat. -fin.

dream #2
...so i'm taking a walk in my neiborhood, it's night out, and i come across this mob of kids being mean to this duck. i start beating the shit out of these kids, i rescue the duck, and take him back to my house, somehow the duck ends up outside and this horrible storm arrives, the duck gets washed away and i'm soooooo sad :(

hmmmmn... what the fuck does all this mean?

blah blah blah....

Tue, 01 Oct 2002 16:26:39 GMT

the past three weekends have been spent at ross'. sara hooked up w/ ryan, but now things are all weird, ew. things w/ ross and i are going extremely well on the other hand, i actually attempted to cook dinner for him last week, and it turned out okay! ross is gonna teach me how to spin, heeeeay!

BLUE IS BEAUTIFUL...

Sat, 21 Sep 2002 19:38:16 GMT

in an attempt to enjoy my only day of solace, i slipped into a sentimental sedation with the assistance of a little blue companion. the result is almost overwhelming as romance literally secretes from my pores. i stare blankly at walls, not fully comprehending my current emotion.

don't you think the joker laughs at you....

Wed, 18 Sep 2002 00:49:49 GMT

FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK!

AWWWW FUCK!